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Today's reflection

Today’s reflection

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I believe the external world to always be a mirror of my own consciousness. A mechanism for ‘me’ to view my beliefs in manifested form. Every experience held in the external world provides an opportunity to ‘see’ our subconscious beliefs. To know ourselves and what areas need to be addressed. Actually nothing ever ‘needs’ to be addressed, but if we want to remain conscious and awake to the true nature of who we are and what this reality is, then addressing what presents itself ‘out there’ is our work.

Tonight I experienced what may be best referred to as ‘social class rejection’ or at least my perception of that. A situation where I seemed to be invisible to the larger group I was in because of my status in a lower financial/professional class. Now from a GOD consciousness perspective, this is preposterous as nothing can be actually owned, nothing can go with us when we leave this place, and there is no separation. So what was this about?

The mirror of reality was reflecting to me my own subconscious belief in my personal value. I can’t say that I was particularly offended by the social snubbing, but rather felt taken aback by how we hold ourselves separate and distinct from each other by using arbitrary values of worth. I do not feel not valuable because of my lack if monetary accumulation, or social prestige, or even professional prestige. In fact, I feel that I have created my circumstances to perfectly allow for a level of simplicity that permits me to feel free from modern restrictions. But what then was the mirror reflecting?

I found Ego saying,” well I don’t want to be like them anyway. They seem shallow and unaware of anything.” Ha. So that was it then. It was not them snubbing me…my personality was snubbing them! The program of separation and mentality of ‘them vs me ‘ was playing! A belief that I was not aware was still in existence.

So it seems that the more that I seek to be in full consciousness and aware of my true self, the more ‘work’ appears.

I say bring it! I say thank you to the mirror for that lesson and thank you to my higher self for making it a fairly benign one.

Gandhi’s words whisper to me as I fall asleep ….”Be the change…..”

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Realization of anger

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In my Personal Dream I have had many experiences that have brought up, in my emotional awareness, intense feelings if anger and violence. Since it was unacceptable to me to hurt another violently, I suppressed it. That anger and violence simmered within my consciousness and then, since thoughts create things, created violence and more anger in my externally perceived world.

I have now remembered that repeated patterns in our Dream reflect deep beliefs that MUST be recoded/ reprogrammed. We cannot cease participating in this repeating program until we face the origin and definition of the belief that is coded within our psyche .

I have had a realization with regard to my own feelings of anger towards some personalities in my Dream. The belief is regarding Power. I believed that Power was outside of me and in order to get my needs met I had to seek out guidance/tolerate greed/tolerate violence/beg for love/pretend for love ( you get the idea). When considering why I would have maintained a relationship with a personality that was toxic ( for lack of a better word), it occurred to me that it was usually because I was afraid (FEAR) of their power to destroy my world. I believed that I needed them. If I could keep them under control ( at considerable energetic expense) then my world would remain stable. — feel free to roll eyes–. Where did this belief originate? Participation in this repeated cycle left me feeling more angry and depressed.

Initially, I believed that I was angry because of their behaviors. I had to consider how I had given them such power over my life. How and why was/am I actively giving them the power to make my life miserable? Then I remembered.

We can change our experience in the Dream if we understand the programs running in our minds…our beliefs. If we can’t ‘see’ this program, we can’t stop it. There is no negative or positive experience, but merely what we choose to experience. This disempowered experience was not what I wanted any longer. So my realization was that I had given this person the power to destroy my world because, in the beginning of the relationship, I believed that they had the power (external) to make my life better. It was as simple as that. I believed that a personality in the external world had the power to affect my life. Now that I understand that only I ( the true self, the God self) have this power, this false belief can now be deleted and a new program inserted.

Whew. That record was getting old.

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Turning to Source…

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So often our engagement with the One Dream  ( the shared dream we experience in this point of perception) is an extremely harried experience. Our Ego minds are convinced of the absolute reliance on time and its constant force of directing us to action. I/You/We feel urged towards constant action, constant physical and mental activity, and constant interaction with other minds via their personalities ( in person or thru media). The nature of this version of the Dream program provides more opportunities for physical and mental action than one mind could possibly focus upon without feeling overwhelmed/sick/tired/fried. As so many of us have experienced.

We are constantly engaging with the field to gather information. It seems to me that the information that I/You/We gather is used in order to create a sense of unique existence  for ourselves. To create and reinforce concrete ideas about ourselves within our physical environment,. This concrete reinforcement of our ‘self’ and our ‘world’ assists us in relieving (temporarily) that underlying sense of disconnection that creates feelings of anxiety and fear. I believe that our Ego drives this manic behavior on by telling Us that we need this interaction and frenzied activity to feel alive, to feel apart of something greater, and to feel important.  Our Ego wants us to believe that if we stop these behaviors/habits/compulsions, then we will be empty,alone, and not important.

The truth is that constantly directing your perception and energy into the physical world in a frenzied manner is the exact cause for the anxiety and fear that is so ever-present in this Dream version. These feelings of shame, lack, anxiety, guilty ( all Ego driven and fear based)are exacerbated in a feedback mechanism cycle by these behaviors.  The only real remedy for any of these feelings is to force yourself to pull away. Pull away from the dream we are all projecting now. Pull away from the constant engagement. Resist the voice that says that you will be alone or bored or left behind. Resist to the best of your current ability, because in the stillness and void is the place where you are truly connected. In the stillness is the only true source of love, peace, bliss, contentment, joy…in the stillness is Source. All that truly exists is Source. Turn to this reality as often and as willingly as you can in this present moment. The answer to your questions, the source of your healing, the relief of you anxiety, the experience of being loved is found in Source. We are all Source and so Source is within you.  One cannot find their connection to Source while concurrently participating in the madness of the Dream.

So stop when you want to run and go inside. Stop when you want to hide and go inside. Stop when you want to take and go inside. All of the treasures of the world lie within you.

Namaste