In my Personal Dream I have had many experiences that have brought up, in my emotional awareness, intense feelings if anger and violence. Since it was unacceptable to me to hurt another violently, I suppressed it. That anger and violence simmered within my consciousness and then, since thoughts create things, created violence and more anger in my externally perceived world.

I have now remembered that repeated patterns in our Dream reflect deep beliefs that MUST be recoded/ reprogrammed. We cannot cease participating in this repeating program until we face the origin and definition of the belief that is coded within our psyche .

I have had a realization with regard to my own feelings of anger towards some personalities in my Dream. The belief is regarding Power. I believed that Power was outside of me and in order to get my needs met I had to seek out guidance/tolerate greed/tolerate violence/beg for love/pretend for love ( you get the idea). When considering why I would have maintained a relationship with a personality that was toxic ( for lack of a better word), it occurred to me that it was usually because I was afraid (FEAR) of their power to destroy my world. I believed that I needed them. If I could keep them under control ( at considerable energetic expense) then my world would remain stable. — feel free to roll eyes–. Where did this belief originate? Participation in this repeated cycle left me feeling more angry and depressed.

Initially, I believed that I was angry because of their behaviors. I had to consider how I had given them such power over my life. How and why was/am I actively giving them the power to make my life miserable? Then I remembered.

We can change our experience in the Dream if we understand the programs running in our minds…our beliefs. If we can’t ‘see’ this program, we can’t stop it. There is no negative or positive experience, but merely what we choose to experience. This disempowered experience was not what I wanted any longer. So my realization was that I had given this person the power to destroy my world because, in the beginning of the relationship, I believed that they had the power (external) to make my life better. It was as simple as that. I believed that a personality in the external world had the power to affect my life. Now that I understand that only I ( the true self, the God self) have this power, this false belief can now be deleted and a new program inserted.

Whew. That record was getting old.